defarious

Damn sickness

2009-08-22T16:42:21Z

So I am definitly getting worse and it is probably my own fault. I keep trying to continue on and the meds are doing less and less to help. Thankfully I got a co-worker to give me his shorter shift tonight and I have 2 days off starting tomorrow so I can get a chance to relax.

In other news besides being sick life is not too bad, The one nice thing about having my mother around is she is always trying to clean. At first I found it insulting to have her clean up my place, I thought she was trying to say my place was messy but now I just accept the fact that she is obsesive about cleaning and I get my place cleaned for free.

Sadly my writing skills are still hindered by this damn fever but hopefully soon I will be back to my normal self.

Slightly sick

2009-08-20T18:18:48Z

I'm starting to get sick, this sickness has been slowly getting worse. It started out as a minor fever and a sore throat 3 days ago but is now a full blown flue or cold, not sure which. Sadly I really can not afford to call off of work so I just take the dayquill and press on. Hopefully it is not too bad and I get over it soon, the fever is the worst of it so far the medicne takes care of the rest but the fever lingers on make me light headed and makes it difficult to focus.

My mother is still here which makes it a pain in the ass, I'm not really sure why she has come. She said she wanted to visit but she doesn't seem too interested in doing anything with me, not that I mind I really don't want to have to play host it just confuses me. This update isn't too well written but my fever is making this more difficult then I realized.

Blah

2009-08-19T19:35:00Z

Sadly I have been a bit busy recently, my mother is visting and that makes finding time to update my LJ. She will be here until monday so I may not be around as much as I would like until then sadly. It has been a busy week for me, having to play host and deal with my work as usual so I am a bit overwhelmed. Thankfully my mother is distracted by my roommates baby so I do not have to go out of my way to keep her entertained I just can not be rude and sneak off to my room to post much.

I am planning on doing a real update when I get home from work tonight, she will be asleep by the time I get home so I will post again then

I don't get people

2009-08-10T14:12:52Z

So this week I got screwed over for some reason my boss severly cut my hours. Later I found out that she felt I had an attitude problem recently and was punishing me. Now I don't have the experience she does but when one of my employs suddenly starts to get a bad attitude the first thing I do is talk with them and try to figure out what is wrong with them. Instead she just said screw it and cut my hours... Thankfully one of my coworkers explained to her one of my biggest problems, my hours are still screwed this week but hopefully I will see a change next week.

I do not really understand some people, the night shift girl is on vacation but for some reason she feels comfortable talking to me about her problems. It is something that seems to be common, ever since I can remember I have had friends tell me their problems more often my female friends for some reason... Anyways she had a fight with her boyfriend and wanted to talk about it but for some reason people seem to think a man and a woman around the same age can not be just friends.

I know I am single and I have been for a while now so some people think I should be going for any chance that I get. They do not understand that I will not take advantage of her in her upset state of mind, I am going to help her through her problems be there for her to talk to/cry on and nothing more. I'm sure sooner or later I will find a girl for me but I will never take advantage of the fact that my female friends find it easy tell me their problems.

Happy days

2009-07-30T15:48:57Z

I am very, very happy *Does a happy dance* My roommate has a job!! Hooray!!! This means I can stop pulling extra long days at work I can stop stressing over bills and I can buy stuff for myself once again! Of course that will not happen for a bit depending on where he comes in on the pay period but at worst he should get 1 paycheck next month.

As I said before once he is getting payed regularly he is taking over at least 2 months of rent and a new lap top shall be mine!

Of course the downside is that he is horrible at waking up, I will have to be his human alarm clock as I as today... I had to wake him up at 7 am which is way to early for me and the way he is talking that will be late compared to the normal wake up call he shall need. but if it'll make my life less stressful and give me more free time I'll do it.

Last night my night wasn't as good, I had a very stressful night followed with my ex walking in. She wanted to talk so I decided to take her back to the office, she proceeded to tell me how much she missed me and loved me. I will admit for a bit I was considering getting back with her, I am lonely and want to feel loved. Then of course she ruined it by saying "Of course you'll have to cut your hair, I don't want to date a guy with long hair like a fag."

At that point it all came back to me how cruel and mean spirited she was and how she was always trying to change me to fit her image and how often she would insult me for no reason. So I told her I was seeing someone and that I was sorry. A total lie and I probably doomed myself to loneliness for a while but I do not need that kind of girl, for now I am happy about avoiding that mistake.

Well I am off to do nothing and enjoy my day off in a true lazy way. : )

defarious @ 2009-07-26T11:39:00

2009-07-26T15:56:29Z

Today is finally a day off, and I do not have to do much today so I can actually relax. Hooray!

As I stated before my life has been a bit hectic and it is only made worse by people who really want to talk at random points keeping me from doing things I really want/need to do. Last night for instance I was getting off work and before I headed home I needed to have a chat with the night shift girl. Some one had started spreading a rumor that she and I are sleeping together and when she was asked instead of saying "No" or "No way" or even "No way" she told them "Who I sleep with is none of your buisness" and of course everyone took that as a yes.

And of course she loves screwing around with people so recently she has been more flirtatious and touchy feely with me. I didn't know why until today., and I knew I needed to talk with her before this thing got too far. As a manger if I was sleeping with an employee I could easily be fired and I can not afford to loose my job. Anyways as I am clocking out a friend of mine decides he wants to stop by and talk with me, I hint to him that I am tired and just want to go home and I have worked hard. I even tell him I need to hurry up and get home to talk with my roommate but he ignores all hints and talks to me for almost an hour.

As he fianlly leaves I go and sit in the back to relax for a minute before I talk with the night shift girl but she follows me back and we end up talking and I convince her to tone things down a bit but as I am leaving I realize that I just spent 20 minutes with her in the back with no one else in the store off of cameras... I just made matters worse for myself.

And that is how my days have been going for some odd reason, the night before as I get home from work my roommate decides he wants to talk and by the time I realize it it is 2 am and I am dead tired the night before that the night shift girl needed to vent so I stayed late to let her tell me her problems.

So between hard work at home and work and random people wanting to talk with me it has been very difficult for me to get anything done. I think work shouldn't be as time consuming now though, things have settled down and hopefully that means less 12 hour days for me.

Too busy...

2009-07-24T15:02:51Z

Way too busy over here, I meant to do a post 2 nights ago but of course as I am about to get off of work my District manager comes in and I have to stay with him while he runs me through a few ideas he had for the store, then as I am walking to my car a friend shows up wanting to talk... No matter how much I hinted that I just wanted to go home he talked for an hour. And when I finally got home my room mate was in a mood to talk. So I couldn't even make it to my computer till late and I as tired as hell.

So a quick update, I have been working my ass off, long days at work because the big regional boss is coming down and I have to make everything perfect for him. and My roommate (Still jobless) seems to refuse to clean up the house, so my time at home is spent with doing dishes vacuming the house cleaning stuff up, taking the trash out.

I should be doing dishes now but I wanted to post and get a chance to read some of your journals today so I am putting that off till after I get home tonight. Of course I have to go in early again tonight and I need to go in extra early so I have time to pick up and cash my paycheck before I have to head into work.

Well this wasn't a real update I will hopefully be able to do one soon... We shall see.

Busy, busy, busy!

2009-07-22T13:58:52Z

Just a quick update/apology here, I have been really, really busy and have had no time to get on LJ I wanted to do a decent update today and read and comment on some of your journals today but again I am running behind schedule. I should of left here 10 minutes ago so I am late Lol

Once I get home I'll give a decent update and take some time to read through what I've missed. Sorry everyone : (

defarious @ 2009-07-20T09:15:00

2009-07-20T13:38:45Z

I figured I should do a quick post, I don't have too much time to make a decent update but I wanted to get some of it posted so my next update won't be too long. : )

The last day of my vacation was a movie day, I found my old crappy DVD player and hooked it up and watched movies all day. After watching "Dr. Horrible's sing along blog" the other day I was in a musical mood so I watched mostly musicals. I was surprised to see how many I owned when I stared pulling them out. So it was a good last day off.

Yesterday was my first day back to work, my mood was shot as I walked in the door. It was a busy day and a large portion of it was me trying to correct things others did wrong while I was away. Some of the mistakes made baffled me, things that were just too simple to mess up on had been messed up. So it was a fun first day back.

That is all for now. I am a busy busy person at the moment. : (

I can not think of a title tonight

2009-07-18T01:28:20Z

Alright, today has been an up and down kind of day.

First the optical sensor/ laser (What ever it is called) that reads disc inside my PS3 is dead... I can't play games, watch DVDs, Blu-rays, or listen to CDs. Thankfully that is the only problem with it, my large collection of movies, TV shows and anime is all fine and watchable but I can't do much else. It was a gift to me from my mom and I learned today that she through out the receipt making it's warrenty pretty much void since I need that to get any work on it. And there is no way I can afford to buy a new one.

So that made me very sad... I called my mother and she says she will get me a new one, she can be a bit unreliable at times but if she does get a new one it will be cool since I can use this one to keep all my downloaded movies and shows and the other one for games...

On the other hand before it died I watched a really funny movie called "Dr.Horrible's sing along blog" a musical with Neil Patrick Harris playing a pathetic villain trying to get a girl and make it into a league of evil! A very cheesy movie with poor special effects but really good singing and acting. It may not be very manly of me to admit it but I do enjoy a good musical and I love a good low budget film so this one really was a good find for me.

And my Roommate has left for the weekend giving me the place to my self for the next couple of days. which is good and bad at the same time. Good because I don't have to tip toe around the house till 1pm because he always sleeps in late and I don't have to feel guilty about making food for myself and not making any for him. A bit bad just because I always get a bit lonely when I am all by myself but this time I think the good out ways the bad Lol

Blah!

2009-07-16T13:42:10Z

So I ended up going over to my friends house yesterday, I still felt bad about lying to him and he asked me to come over again so I did. So that consumed a large portion of my day yesterday, he mostly wanted to bitch about other people. I have no problem letting him vent but it is a bit of a drive for just that, oh well that is what friends are for.

I had to be away from my computer most of the day so I got little done that I wanted to but I can make up for it today. Though reading everyone talking about the new HP movie makes me want to go see it, hmm... maybe I can sell one of my kidney's on the black market... You only need one right? No I guess I'll just have to catch it once my roommate starts getting paid.

I fear I am struck with writers block and am having a really difficult time deciding what to type even though I know a lot happened yesterday Lol. Well No need to try to force it I'll just post again later today if something else pops up : )

Not the best day of my vacation.

2009-07-14T19:10:37Z

I feel kind of bad... my friend wanted me to come over today and told him I would but when I woke up I really just felt like going nowhere. I got a bit selfish and decided that I just wouldn't go. The problem is unless I give him a good reason he will try to guilt trip me into coming over so I had to lie to him.

I feel bad about it but driving 30 minutes there and 30 more back just really didn't appeal to me today. Plus I didn't sleep at all last night. My ex called me right before I was going to sleep, she was drunk and wasn't too kind... So I was not in the mood to sleep after that conversation.

But I'm not letting any of that get to me it is my vacation and I will enjoy it damn it! : ) I've watched some Monty Python movies to get me in a better mood and that always works.

defarious @ 2009-07-13T16:09:00

2009-07-13T20:27:45Z

Well it is a good day, I just got news that my roommate/brother has a job. All he has to do is pass a drug test in a couple of days and he will be employed. He has been jobless for 3 months now making me pay all of the bills on my own and it has been very difficult... But he should be making more then I make now so I already told him he will be paying all of the bills for 2 months so I can use my money to buy a new computer!

So I have been drooling over what I can get within that price range : ) I just have to make it through this month and then he should be able to start paying.

Oh and I just played the demo to the ghostbuster game... All the same voice actors same music, a similar look it felt very much like the old movies and was really fun.

I feel loved

2009-07-12T20:35:37Z

This is a nice surprise, I didn't think I would get so many responses so quickly. To all of you who added me thank you it is always nice to see a positive outcome when I manage to overcome my shyness : )

I wasn't planning on leaving my home at all, my first day of vacation was going to be a day of doing absolutely nothing but I had to give up on that when I got guilt tripped into helping someone at work. I am home now and my mood got much better when I saw all the responses I had gotten. If any of you want to chat feel free to IM me Defarious86 on AIM and Defarious on Yahoo messenger.

Well I am going to force chocobos to make babies! I need my gold chocobo in FF7 Lol

My first post

2009-07-12T15:00:17Z

Since this is my first LJ post and I really have no idea how to start it I'll just jump right in...

Today marks the start of my Vacation WooHoo! My job was killing me and I am so glad to get away from it. Of courseit seemed like last night my job was trying to stop me... everything from a coworker setting off an alarm on accident to a mountain of 2 liters falling on me but I made it!

And it feels good I restarted watching my slayers anime I haven't watched them all from begining to end in a while so I figure some of my vacation can be spent with me and my lovely anime .

Hmm... Feels a bit short for my first post but oh well I'll post again tonight I have an interesting day ahead of me and so I should have more to write about.